The Worst Things Happen to the Best of People

So over the past couple of years I have come to realize that a lot of the people that I hold close to my heart always have the worst things happen to them.  It's been an ongoing realization too.  One of my first exposures to this was over this past summer when I was reunited with one of my old long time friends.  I came to the knowledge that she had been diagnosed with diabetes and she's only 19. 

Another experience was with my beloved Sunday school teachers who are my neighbors, they had like three or four funerals for family in about a months time, and had more even after that.  I look up to them so much, especially the wife.  She is just so funny but knows when to be practical too.  She definitely is on my top ten list of people I love and look up to most in my life who aren't related to me. 

Two more people that I realized have had to deal with hard trial are my sweet roommates I had last year.  They both struggle with finding the right guy for them, someone who will truly love them and treat them the way they deserve to be treated.  I have always felt a sincere sorrow for that... These two girls are so amazing in their own ways and for guys not able to see that just makes me mad.  Also one of which had her father pass away right before school was starting. 

My best friend and also boyfriend has had quite the deal with his trials in his life also.  A constant trial he has to deal with is financial stability.  Especially in this economy most people are having problems making ends meet, finding a job, and budgeting their money.   I have tried to help him as much as I can with this and as a result, I too forgot to budget and handle my money correctly.  This past weekend when we were out shopping, he came to realize that he would not have enough money to pay for his bills and then proceeded to take out some of the things he really wanted to get.  I was so proud and impressed with him!  In a way, I felt like crying, to me he has always just kind of thrown his money around but now look at him! 
   
Another thing that he has struggled with is managing his time.  He would always be late for everything, whether it was for our date or for work.  He has put so much effort into working on this that he is hardly late for work and makes time to go workout about everyday after work.  I am so proud of him for this.  
   
He has had so many heart breaks and people cheat on him that it makes it hard for it to seem like he will ever find the right person to marry and will stay faithful to him.  I have made my share of mistakes and know that I have hurt him many times, but that is behind me now and I will never make another mistake that will hurt him every again.  I don't wanna lose the man of my dreams and I need to stay faithful and strong.  Relationships aren't suppose to be easy, they will try and bring you to tears.  What I have come to realize is that if it's worth all of the worst times, the tears and heartache I've had with him just for the other times when I am the happiest then yes, it's worth fighting for.  No one is perfect, and no relationship is perfect.  Of course there are going to be fights and disagreements but as long as you can work them out then that's all that matters.  You endure a lot of pain and sacrifice the things you hold closest to your heart that you never thought you would for anything, but love is such a powerful thing.  Yet it's funny how many people have mistaken it for other things. 

The most recent bad news my poor ears have heard is that one of my really good friends I have known for about 5 years now, was diagnosed with Chronic Obstructive Pulmonary Disease.  For those of you who don't know what this is, it is a lung disease that you contract from smoking or being around people who smoke too much.  I had no idea that she even had been around people who smoked.  I had an idea that she had been around smoke more than me since she is older and not of the same religion but I still had no idea that she would even become victim to something like that.  She has already had the hardest two years of her life, having her brother commit suicide, being a step away from death herself due to sickness, multiple injuries and in and outs of the hospital, and now this.  When she told me of this great misfortune I couldn't believe it.  No, not you, you couldn't have that.  I then looked up the disease online to more fully understand it and to see if there was any cure or useful information I could use.  However, to my dismay, there was no cure and it was a life long disease.  At that very moment my itunes, which was on shuffle, started playing this sad but inspiring song.  I looked the song up on You Tube to see the lyrics and stumbled across this music video.  I love the pictures in this movie. 






  I truly love all these people who are enduring all these diverse challenges in their life.  I feel such pain and sympathy for them.  It also makes me realize how very blessed I am.  I don't have any horrible health problems, I have found the man I wanna marry who treats me right, I haven't had any recent deaths in my family, I do have money problems but I am starting a new job this week that pays well and is very flexible.  

Lines, Lines, and More Lines

So I still have my burning love for my design class.  The latest project that we have done is examples of types of lines (curved, diagonal, horizontal, and vertical).  Each example was 5" by 12" so it was pretty good sized for each.  All our professor told us to bring was permanent markers and a ruler.  He showed us some of the best most amazing examples of his other students had created.  I sat there thinking to myself, "Why does he show us the ones that are like beyond belief to be from other beginners?  He should put some of the not so amazing ones that are still good but in more of our 'beginners' level."  Now that I contemplate more about it, I think that he is really just trying to challenge us to go above and beyond what we think we are capable of.  However, I still think he should put other levels up there also.  I am pleased with how well mine turned out and you can't see my mistakes from this picture which makes it awesome! haha So enjoy. 

Walking In The Rain

     So I have decided that my design class is the bomb!  All we have done so far is made potato stamps and made pictures out of them. These are my creations!
 

I am so excited that I am finally taking an art class.  In high school I refused to take any fancy art classes because I was too intimidated of all the Michael Angelo prodigies out there.  I figured once you hit high school, the people who take those classes are freakin' amazing!  Art 'freaks' if you know what I mean.  I didn't need my self esteem to go any lower so I took more fun art classes like calligraphy, which was my favorite class in high school, and also sculpture, which was fun cause I wouldn't do anything for two days then race to get my project done.  My teacher in sculpture was amazing and loved me! haha Almost everyday he would yell at this kid who sat diagonal from me telling him to get to work, while I was sitting there doing absolutely nothing.  Once in a while I'd just clean out my backpack but that's about it.  After he'd yell at that kid, he'd come over to me and ask if I was doing alright and tell me to keep up the good work! haha Man, I was sure lucky.  That same teacher ended up giving me like 5 bucks when I asked if he had any change for the vending machines.  But back to my real store about design..

So right when I get out of my design class I noticed that good ol' mother nature decided to let her tears fall from the heavens.  And of course it just had to be raining when I got out of my last class which just so happens to be my furthest class from my apartment.  Thank goodness I decided to wear a hat that day! What luck right?  As I was walking home I began to think of how I always seem to get stuck in walking in bad weather.  Like the time I went to Provo and my boyfriend was suppose to pick me up but fell back asleep so I had to walk maybe over a half mile or so to his apartment while it was snowing like crazy, and of course it was blowing right into my face.  And to top it off, all I was wearing was a light zip up hoody, jeans, and flats... so needless to say, I got soaked.  But while I was walking in that blizzard, I wasn't particularly mad at my boyfriend at all, I was just trying to enjoy myself and not freeze to death or slip and fall.  The same experience happened when I was walking during this little down pour of rain.  I was walking with a skip in my step and just enjoying myself.  It was really weird.  I didn't get soaked, which was definitely a plus.  Once I got home I was in the bathroom listening to the radio and this song came on.  After searching on the internet trying to remember the lyrics, I finally found it.  It was "Stand In The Rain" by SuperchicK.

Here's the Music video, just listen to the lyrics, the movie is kinda weird.

My Excitment to Have a Blog

So I have decided that I should have gotten a blog a way long time ago because this is like ten times better than writing in a journal cause it won't get lost or torn and you can have complete strangers comment on the thoughts that are cluttering my mind.  Also I can just vent about all the stupid people I meet and when I get in a fight with my roommates or whatever I feel like at the time.  It's a great place to blog because usually the people you are venting about don't even know you have a blog.  This is pretty much full proof!  How exciting right?! I know all you other bloggers already discovered this long ago and I am just barely taking your guys' advice, better late than ever right? haha And for those people who think that you don't need a blog and you can just use your Facebook are in for a treat.  Really I challenge them to just try "blogging" on their Facebook about their problems and drama and it will only create more!  Good Luck trying to blog on there! haha