So over the past couple of years I have come to realize that a lot of the people that I hold close to my heart always have the worst things happen to them. It's been an ongoing realization too. One of my first exposures to this was over this past summer when I was reunited with one of my old long time friends. I came to the knowledge that she had been diagnosed with diabetes and she's only 19.
Another experience was with my beloved Sunday school teachers who are my neighbors, they had like three or four funerals for family in about a months time, and had more even after that. I look up to them so much, especially the wife. She is just so funny but knows when to be practical too. She definitely is on my top ten list of people I love and look up to most in my life who aren't related to me.
Two more people that I realized have had to deal with hard trial are my sweet roommates I had last year. They both struggle with finding the right guy for them, someone who will truly love them and treat them the way they deserve to be treated. I have always felt a sincere sorrow for that... These two girls are so amazing in their own ways and for guys not able to see that just makes me mad. Also one of which had her father pass away right before school was starting.
My best friend and also boyfriend has had quite the deal with his trials in his life also. A constant trial he has to deal with is financial stability. Especially in this economy most people are having problems making ends meet, finding a job, and budgeting their money. I have tried to help him as much as I can with this and as a result, I too forgot to budget and handle my money correctly. This past weekend when we were out shopping, he came to realize that he would not have enough money to pay for his bills and then proceeded to take out some of the things he really wanted to get. I was so proud and impressed with him! In a way, I felt like crying, to me he has always just kind of thrown his money around but now look at him!
Another thing that he has struggled with is managing his time. He would always be late for everything, whether it was for our date or for work. He has put so much effort into working on this that he is hardly late for work and makes time to go workout about everyday after work. I am so proud of him for this.
He has had so many heart breaks and people cheat on him that it makes it hard for it to seem like he will ever find the right person to marry and will stay faithful to him. I have made my share of mistakes and know that I have hurt him many times, but that is behind me now and I will never make another mistake that will hurt him every again. I don't wanna lose the man of my dreams and I need to stay faithful and strong. Relationships aren't suppose to be easy, they will try and bring you to tears. What I have come to realize is that if it's worth all of the worst times, the tears and heartache I've had with him just for the other times when I am the happiest then yes, it's worth fighting for. No one is perfect, and no relationship is perfect. Of course there are going to be fights and disagreements but as long as you can work them out then that's all that matters. You endure a lot of pain and sacrifice the things you hold closest to your heart that you never thought you would for anything, but love is such a powerful thing. Yet it's funny how many people have mistaken it for other things.
The most recent bad news my poor ears have heard is that one of my really good friends I have known for about 5 years now, was diagnosed with Chronic Obstructive Pulmonary Disease. For those of you who don't know what this is, it is a lung disease that you contract from smoking or being around people who smoke too much. I had no idea that she even had been around people who smoked. I had an idea that she had been around smoke more than me since she is older and not of the same religion but I still had no idea that she would even become victim to something like that. She has already had the hardest two years of her life, having her brother commit suicide, being a step away from death herself due to sickness, multiple injuries and in and outs of the hospital, and now this. When she told me of this great misfortune I couldn't believe it. No, not you, you couldn't have that. I then looked up the disease online to more fully understand it and to see if there was any cure or useful information I could use. However, to my dismay, there was no cure and it was a life long disease. At that very moment my itunes, which was on shuffle, started playing this sad but inspiring song. I looked the song up on You Tube to see the lyrics and stumbled across this music video. I love the pictures in this movie.
I truly love all these people who are enduring all these diverse challenges in their life. I feel such pain and sympathy for them. It also makes me realize how very blessed I am. I don't have any horrible health problems, I have found the man I wanna marry who treats me right, I haven't had any recent deaths in my family, I do have money problems but I am starting a new job this week that pays well and is very flexible.
